Reinventing Myself By my junior year as a French horn player at the University of Miami, I was getting enough music gigs to meet my first goal: to pay my rent. But by then I’d already begun to dream beyond performing other peoples’ music; I wanted to write, arrange and produce it myself. Composing became [...]
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I started this “little writing experiment” back in November. I’ve written and posted to this blog every single weekday since then. No matter what.Over 50,000 words, as a matter of fact. And my life has changed since I started. A lot. All for the better. (I talk about it a little here and started the [...]
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Most of us do not rest enough. Most of us need more rest. And by “rest,” I mean more than your standard 8-hours-of-sleep. I mean rest. Quiet. Stoppage. Retreating within. Unfortunately, our days, our reputations, our self-worth is in many ways based upon how much we can do and get done, how well we plow [...]
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This morning I woke up with breathing on my brain. A voice said, “Write about breathing.” Um, ok. A human being is only breath and shadow. ~Sophocles (not me) I did my little Google search, came up with some interesting things. Apparently we take somewhere from 20,000 to 25,000 times per day. Since we are [...]
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They told me I was perfect. The people who loved me the most, from my grandmother on down, told me how great I was. So smart. So beautiful. Funny, too. As long as I did no wrong, I reasoned, they’d continue to love me so…and that felt great. I always had a lot of friends. [...]
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“Being in the gap can be disorienting and even scary.” No-thingness. I have picked this card from my Zen Tarot deck twice in about one week. Twice out of 80-something cards. “Nothing to hold on to, no sense of direction, not even a hint of what choices and possibilities lie ahead.” No-thingness. “But it was [...]
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Last night, I met a friend for dinner. She told me she thought about cancelling beforehand because she’d been such a recluse lately, but decided not to because she thought I’d be upset if she did. (I would have understood.) Recluse. Alone. Solitary. We talked about our tendencies to be more alone than not. We [...]
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My story is just starting to make sense. The threads of my early memories are finally weaving their way into the tapestry of my life. Some threads of my story are still buried so deeply that an odd, unforgiving memory will re-surface when I least expect it. But then another layer of life will suddenly [...]
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When you are having a bad day/time/thing, do you try to ride it through or do you try to do something to change it? Do you acknowledge it and then allow yourself to feel it and stay in it or do you do what you can to turn things around? Do you turn to the [...]
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Today, I am wearing a green dress. It is bright green and loud. It feels so lovely against my skin and flows so beautifully with every step I take. I loved this dress the moment I saw it on the rack in the store. I couldn’t decide between sizes, but when I saw that it [...]
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